The "R" Word...

Well, it's that time of year again, the time for the dreaded "R" word -- resolutions. Every year we make them, and every year most of last until about -- oh -- January 10th. And then we are back to our old habits again. I decided this year I am going to make a New Year's resolution that will be very difficult to break. It won't take any willpower at all, I won't have to deny myself anything, I won't even have to write it down anywhere so I don't forget to keep it. This is a resolution that, once begun, will keep itself. I have decided that 2010 is that year that I am going to ...

... HAVE FUN ...!

Yes, I am.

That may sound a bit selfish, or at the very least egocentric. We are supposed to put other people first, aren't we? That is what we are taught at a very early age. I have always felt a bit like a kid outside the candy store, watching everyone else inside, loading up on all the goodies. But more than that, I have always felt that I did not deserve to be inside the candy store. I have no idea why I have felt that way -- I just have. All the wonderful things in life that everyone comes to expect, were not meant for me. And I'm not talking about material things, but the things that bring people the most joy -- the intangible things. This past year I have watched many of my friends achieve great happiness -- and I was even primarily instrumental in one instance. And then I do what I always do -- I stand back and observe -- always the spectator, never the participant.

So, this year I have decided it is going to be my turn inside the candy store. I'm not sure how I'm going to get in there, but I am determined to do it.

“Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things that you didn't do than by the ones you did do. So throw off the bowlines. Sail away from the safe harbor. Catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore. Dream. Discover.” ... Mark Twain

Happy New Year to all my wonderful blogging friends.

Cheers,